@CliftonsNotes congratulations to you and your wife on the birth of your son! As you enjoy that beautiful new baby boy, admiring all the perfection of his fingers and toes, I hope you will reflect on the possibility of His Intelligent Design. I don't want to offend you, but since you have shared lately your #prayforscott experiement and open mindedness please consider Romans 1:20 "For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse." It seems impossible to me to imagine that this amazing creature was evolved from a big bang chance happening that started life. All of his biological systems, nerves, skin, digestion, immunity, skeletal, circulation, etc. coming together by chance? There is a book you might find interesting called "Scientists Who Believe" that shares personal stories of famous respected scientists who were able to reconcile their scientific beliefs with faith. Many with super high intelligence and logical reasoning have this difficulty understanding or accepting the existence of God. You aren't the first to struggle with this. Did you know most of our Ivy league schools that have graduated brilliant minds were originally seminaries? The two fields don't have to be mutually exclusive. I love Science personally, yet it increases my awe of God rather than refuting His existence. The sad thing, that you have pointed out, is that so many who claim to be believers behave in a hateful manner which is the opposite of what God stands for. God is all about love, but as sinners we constantly fall short of living it out to it's fullest. He is also all about free will which gives you the right to choose your actions and beliefs.